Why keep chasing the knots?

The sky is thick today. We've got that heavy Full Moon in Pisces pulling at our subconscious while the Sun and Mercury are busy sorting out the details in Virgo. It's a classic push-pull between the infinite and the mundane. I've spent years looking at how these transits mirror our soul's baggage, trying to figure out why we carry so much of it forward.

I’m thinking about the Nodes. In the West, we treat them as points of karmic release and direction, but I’ve been reading up on how some schools view them as literal, hungry mouths that consume parts of our life to force us to grow. It’s a harsh thought. Do you actually believe that our greatest pain is just a planned mechanism to push us into a different house of the chart? It feels so mechanical to view trauma as just an inevitable transit hit. I’d rather think we have more say in the matter, but maybe I'm just being stubborn. I usually check my SkyToday feed to see how these alignments shift, but the theory itself still leaves me wondering if we’re just running on tracks someone else laid down ages ago. Does it ever feel like you're just following a script?